I have lived in one “city”/”town” since birth. I have never
moved to a different house. I've been in the same village on Saipan all my life. I have never lived in a different home for a year,
only for a few weeks. I do not know what it is like to continue moving from one
place to another. I wish I did know. However, I would prefer (hence, I agree
with) living in one town instead.
I believe I’m a homebody. I like staying in the comfort of
my own home. It’s not like I don’t like going out and hanging out with people,
playing volleyball or soccer with a couple of friends, swimming in the beach or
at the water park, or visiting a library or the mall or something. I love doing those things. Perhaps if I
was in a new area I would do all those things to get myself familiar with the
place. But honestly, I like knowing that I could go to a home that is not going
anywhere. A home that has its own definite position. Whether it be a closet of
an apartment or a glorious mansion. I’d rather be in one home.
One time my mom suggested moving to Hawaii during my middle
school years. One thing for sure, I was nervous about the idea. The last time I
had been to Hawaii was when I was one year old. I also didn’t know anyone
personally in Hawaii. I was afraid I wouldn’t make any friends; I was also
afraid of losing the close friends I had already for years. My mom enjoyed the
thought though; I could tell. But to my gladness, we didn’t move to Hawaii. My grandfather
needed her here on Saipan to run the boating business, and my mom couldn’t
abandon that. I always thought about what my life would’ve been like if we did
pursue that move. Would I actually have friends? Would I be happier in Hawaii?
How would my sister react to moving? Would my dad still be with us?
I guess you can say that I have a fear of moving to places I am not familiar with. I’d rather stay in the place I have been since birth. (Such a conservative perspective, right?) But there will come a time that I will leave Saipan. I will leave the two story home I have memorized so well. I will miss the island I have come to love. But I honestly believe that when you stay in a place for so long, you begin to become numb to the beauty that already surrounds you. You’ll want to move from where you have been for so long.
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